beat

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  • jenifer
  • alert but not enough sleep . hope my poems please thee.

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Beaten and broken he left me on the floor, where I sit surround by the wounds he left on even my heart. I cant stand to walk out of the room. To gather my thoughts . To tell him to stop. To grab my things.

So I stay on the floor with him hitting my back and spitting his words at me. Tears they don't matter there just there. The wounds they hide the way I feel . The temper I not let out for the fear and the doubt, he touches my hair and pulls it tight , and tugs it still like the bit on my skin. The wound still there for the terror that is there , I feel it last just like the glass on my leg and the blood from the mirror that he broke to show me myself the way he sees me . The truth he says is there. The lie is what I see inside of me. He tells me that I am not me . That I need not have what I see. The wound that sits on me is great not small like he tells me I am.

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hdmac commented on beat

10-10-2009

Good emotional poetry. I think you explained abuse well. Hopefully it was not a real incident in your life.

sk8ergirl commented on beat

10-10-2009

wow that was a great poem i am sorry that that happened to you. you are like me i have gone through so much pain being only thirteen you are so young so you shouldn't have to go through all that

brandon commented on beat

06-01-2009

sweetie you nor any women should ever be put through this type of treatment ofr thing i am sry you deserve so much better

scrye commented on beat

05-30-2009

jenifer i've read a few of your poems and you seem to have or are still expierencing alot of pain in your short amount of time in this life. It makes me feel bad for you, but you seem to really have a great mind. Hang in there, the only words i can think of to say are the words i live by, and that is, "whatever doesn't kill us only makes us stronger". Theres alot of happiness out there too.

jenifer

05/30/2009

thanks and only some of my poems are bout my life though rape is one of them , sexual desire was a vision. but most of them are bout my life or the pain of others . thanks

Poetry is not an expression of the party line. It's that time of night, lying in bed, thinking what you really think, making the private world public, that's what the poet does.

Allen Ginsberg (1926-1997) U.S. poet.

jenifer’s Poems (193)

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putting myself first above the pain, getting on without abuse. 0
regrets of loves past due.........o
f romance and of you.
0
Something i said to a grieving friend. 0
wondering on looking for you. 1
Missing a part.........
of the heart
2
distance lies.... 1
dreams are. . . 2
it's 3 o'clock in the morning again. 0
belongings, there impact on our writing and what baggage everything else creates 0
the side of the universe, why it is the winds own dame 1
where is home.....? 1
Tants in my ear. Paper is mighter than your hateful dispostion 0
bohemian.....
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2
i sing of this....... 1
bleeding.....
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0
love at too high a price, to sleep........
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0
not ever figured out........ 0
it's a penny and a piece of candy..... 0
because you are mine. 0
done believeing 1
shadows of despair 0
what are you gonna do? 0
elements that touch us.... 0
these words 0
dreams are forever 1
i don't understand this touch this war inside... 0
what do you do? 0
scabbed over planet. 0
pain assult, freedom unaware......
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0
truth of life.... 0
these marks 1
pain ain't got no place here 0
heaven and hell ain't so swell 2
I don't yield 0
pain past perfection 0
expiration date 0
past 1
life's journey 0
stars in your eyes 0
don't let it knock you down 0
knock the glass 0
if only passion kept a tune 0
unkept 0
dust in your eyes 0
young and needs hand 0
poverty,poor being 0
walls to grow 0
show me the stars 0
bourbon 0
stage at the theatre 0
unbound , unyielding 0
moments fleeting 1
not a propasion to be won 0
party bargain 0
every dream and dreamer 0
disability 0
the heart will fall 1
oh baby oh well 0
make up your mind 0
borrowed time 1
not gonna let you burn me 0
long 0
judgment by thi self upon thi self 0
doin as only we and our heart can know 0
hell and heaven spent 0
never ending 0
why 0
revengence 0
pain cant be scrubbed or drunk away. 0
poor 1
feet 0
greek song 1
grime 1
thighs 0
choking 0
formation 0
other 0
desacrution 0
battery 0
rape has a name. 0
coloring 0
sadness swallows 0
reason for self pain 0
the pain of no common sense. 1
condensation 2
getting threw 0
unexceptable 0
wounds to deep 0
transquility continatineal 0
indecency 2
yell y dont ya 1
fragility 0
post to the past 0
choas after the war. 0
father times eternal stillness 0
kindred city 0
passion exists 3
the death of the land 1
cast us aside 0
angels be here 2
random thought. 0
alert 0
await the light 0
walls 2
pain from the bottom and up again 1
just like before 1
broken 1
soul strong 0
the spirits dont cry. 1
casting 0
inspirational 0
dreams 0
hands in mine 3
The change 2
horzion 1
stress 2
torment 3
these eyes 3
homeless and lost 2
crystal eyes 5
written 2
frustration 2
a plea 3
this love 2
jaded eyes that bind me 2
jaded 2
bloody wounds. 0
day 2
brace. 0
chosen wings 1
bottom of the bottle 3
road to tomorrow. 1
wandering wide 2
holders 4
synmmentry 1
shower 3
laden 1
no refuge 4
ashes holey smoke. 4
pressure 9
power of grace. 5
darkness laden with honor 6
tombs 2
petal ,thorn and glass 4
land 2
remember 2
pieces 4
mind's eye 3
these tears 4
take me as i am 4
motion 0
rosa 2
desperation 2
romance 2
these are the other star 2
creation 4
no glory 3
dare them 1
lights go out 1
seashore 3
ground 3
nights last honor 1
cosmos 3
anothers arms 3
love you threw the moon 9
poetry lends a hand 0
purpess we know not 0
death of an angel 5
fear of a death that wont bring peace 4
faith 5
soot 2
endings 1
dream of dreams 1
no where 1
dance 1
midnight 0
motions 1
random 1
fall 1
wish 2
false euphoria 1
this 0
memories 1
madness and love 0
erotica 4
beat 4
worlds away 0
rise up 1
my own bravery 2
innocence 2
sexual desire 8
rape 8
dreamer 3