Carving Pumpkins

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we start out so young and soft and babycute....no hard lines, no wrinkles, nothing to tell someone else what we have been through....nuff said

Carving Pumpkins

sometimes i forget that im not alone...
i probably rarely remember it,
in fact id bet,
that this instance,
im wallowing in miserableness...

with pictures of better days
i manage to drink shelves of memories,
in a few moments,
in a few days, my life passes by
like a fourth of july parade,

all the black middles
and all the blinding stars,
rush by like a titan
huffing nitrous
in a rocket fueled car,

i have an addiction to chemical attraction, i
f you ask a close friend
you will know why i cry,
why i try to delouse myself
in the fears of others,

i keep a shiny mask
next to my drawer of ether,
not that i bother
to kill myself daily,
its not a goddamn race,

its just a god damned place,
and for way too long
im on the outside of a fantastic joke,
with no money, no honey,
no bears, no bees,

just knees that keep me in place
when im about to melt
like a catholic priest
sweating over his sins
sending prayers up smoky candles,

i try to rhyme with candles
i come up with dandles
i try to rhyme with pain
i come up with sorrow
im a lecherous swine

i swear to god ill be better tomorrow
just give me a night
to wash in the river
soak up the light
of a world with no lover

a free floating being on a bed of crystal...
my face like porcelain
bending in the moonlight
im a jacked up carved pumpkin
with my own inner sight

you created me out of dust and distain
and i am very plain
i am nothing to sneeze at
a pitful of nothin so
grant me my freedom 

my eyelids are sticking
ive used up my grace
im crawling on elbows knees and face
the wine bottles are empty
the liqour is drained

the smoke is rising
and the sun is ashamed
the night isnt covering my emotions anymore
back to the day
too late for more...

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ginga commented on Carving Pumpkins

09-04-2010

Amadeusex, A gritty and emphatic write that gets under the skin and tugs at one's heart. ginga

ApaqRasgirl commented on Carving Pumpkins

08-23-2010

this was a very emotional sad write dear, as if you were trapped inside yourself and trying to find your way out........great write dear, you passion flowed through each stanza very well........just open your heart and let the light in and the love you need will find its way to you,,,,,,there is no need to chase it for it will know you as it will feel the light inside you.......wonderful read dear.......thanks for sharing..........love asha

AmadeusEx

08/26/2010

i am slowly but certainly climbing my way free of this melting pumpkin i call my life, and also, thank you for reading brothers, i was just feeling down and had drank quite a bit, wrote it, posted it, and yes, i called my brother...we are fine, as i knew we would be

Mandi commented on Carving Pumpkins

08-23-2010

You know you are waffling back and forth between being vunerable and tough. Two good choices...I llike your form and rythym but the rhyming seems hidden.. but al;l is well that ends well.

AmadeusEx

08/23/2010

definitely just a long stream that i broke up and called a poem...i really do like this one though the more i read it, and the rhyming is in there, but its broken up on purpose, thank you for reading

Poetry is finer and more philosophical than history; for poetry expresses the universal, and history only the particular.

Aristotle (384 BC-322 BC) Greek philosopher.

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