the sum of knowledge painfully accrued
the instruction of heartbreak and rejection
inadequacy and desperation
unworthy professors, all

but lo, the gutter beckons
with it's filth and debris
I rise again, shaken
infected by it's disease
always afflicted
internally deteriorated
like a junkie, dissipated
left with only rudimentary weapons
bringing a tarnished knife
to the next gun fight

always, always, always
I lose

always, always, always
I pull myself back up

wounded and inflamed
screaming rage into the storm
in tones of raw vermillion defiance
cloaked in choking sorrow
and determination
to break free of the decimated battlefield
where bloody bits of me linger
like minor amputations
the sum of loss as yet,
there is nothing left here
worth fighting for

in limitless possibility
the edges of identity undefined
I break on the surface
of a soul refined by fire
pure strength shimmering
liquid molten gold
and this time it's understood
I will craft the mold
I will create myself
in truer lines
with a whole heart
and no arsenal of fearful weaponry

no weight of expectation
no righteous dictate to condemn
every breath
my choices, mine to make
my life, mine to live
every disparate, scattered piece reclaimed
assimilated and owned
and I am beyond contemplating
any further sacrifice of myself
on the alter of the pharisees
the taste of freedom burns wild and sweet
through every atom of my being
unleashing the joy of ME

and so, freed from the lessons
of complicity and submission
to vaunted wisdom
and the morality of the downtrodden
I stand with my whole world
in my own hands
and oh, how I love you
with all that I am
unbroken, unchained
come love
shape this life with me
beyond the reach
of destiny

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Dano commented on destination


battletested and approved... life attacks and you fight back... knocked down you get back up ready for another round... you have alot of inner stregnth.... this very nicely written



I have decided, recently, that no one should have to be this strong :) Life is hard, but we have choices - these days I choose differently, and am discovering of me :)

LenaM commented on destination


okay I have to say this this is so F*****g spot on ! In your face take that MutherF*cker I'm here to refute every lie spoken over me and claim what was denied me and what is truly my birthright by the sheer miracle of my birth I wanted to stand and cheer raise my fist and say hell Yeah Bring IT !!



Bring it sister! thought you'd like it :) we have surpassed merely surviving - we create our own definition of self. Thank you!



yes we have the human spirit is an amazing thing to behold

DeepEclipse commented on destination


Damn! A f*****g verbage explosion! You truly write as someone who has tested every edge of the battlefield. It is as if there is indeed NO new malice, or pain, or test that could shake your foundation. It has all been said and done before. The fact that you constantly and continually write from this magnitude lets me know that it is more than mere talent that you write with. Your writes scream so loudly, and force themselves to be taken seriously. I find it very inspirational, more than I could explain. I would give it a 10 for its beautiful blend of verbed metaphors, and another 10 for it's raw, serious delivery. So so well done.



I can only thank you so sincerely for your comments...such high praise from someone so talented is indeed an honor.

Artie commented on destination


You have a way of putting such power into your words. 10 from me.

parvenu commented on destination


WOW... idk if its ment to be this way but i always feel the lost love or broken heart poems the most and this one is my life in a bowl of hot soup... Beautiful

Poetry is what gets lost in translation.

Robert Frost (1875-1963) American Poet.

tenderpoison’s Poems (116)

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la chanson de la petite mort 4
fallen 2
seasons 0
smoke 2
Thursdays Child 2
the edge 0
whispers 2
nothing left to say... 2
sense of season 2
suspension bridge 1
Legendary 1
Almost 3
compromise 1
the final line 1
weather report 6
lessons in loss 2
Walk Away 1
b*itch boots 5
fumbling, tumbling - falling down 6
metamorphosis mine 13
Secret Language 15
An Ode to StudlyVonFiel
the ties that bind 15
spitting in the wind 9
paradigm 8
talking in tongues 10
cloudy skies 12
really 15
well, I guess I know what it's not.... 13
heart of stars 17
The Longest Road 14
Legacy 6
Despair 7
Delusion 7
Inflammatory 8
survival of the fittest 20
ephemeral 13
the fall of the inconsequenti
Modern Love 24
apathy the enemy 9
Oceans 7
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"I don't love you" I said 20
narcissus speaks 13
destination 9
expectations 6
worlds collide 6
afternoon delight 7
my addiction 19
spilt milk 8
bay-area tourist beware 6
reciprocal 7
take the lead 11
losing what's precious 20
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bacchus unveiled 9
genuine 24
fool's gold 13
silence speaks 9
dark temptation 10
glass beach 9
mother love 12
sweet nothing 9
lighthouse 6
unbound 8
One Moment 5
Michael Jackson is Dead 4
parley 4
unmasked 4
stand 5
sage 9
Rising 8
the last word 6
prelude to bliss 2
unstained 4
insatiable 3
not pretty 8
surrender 4
forsaken 5
kudos 5
fine dining 3
Pieces 4
the tree 16
inches 9
priceless 8
25 years 7
only a dream 9
reborn 5
flicker 5
unruffled 4
taking the air 6
cymbol song 4
strike zone 6
nine days in turlock 9
through the pale 8
redemption song 3
Wise Men Know 8
not so ancient history 7
my forefathers? 2
American Memorial 2
bitter harvest 4
unconquered 52
what's in a name? 5
Flattery 5
me and a tube of crazy glue 6
eternal vows 2
Old Friend 5
directions to destiny 4
Illumination II (a rewrite) 7
Illumination 6
submission - things they don't teach girls 22
Echo 20
Bride 16
Undone 21