DISPLEASED

 ALL THE DAYS OF MY LIFE WERE DONE WITH A PLAN IN MIND
AND THE YEARS WENT ABOUT LACKING AND BLIND.
I NEVER FELT LIKE I BELONGED WITH THE PEOPLE I WAS AROUND
AND I WAS OFTEN CHIDED FOR NO SMILES ONLY FROWNS.
I LEARNED HOW TO KEEP A STRAIGHT FACE BECAUSE I GREW TIRED OF ALWAYS FEELING OUT OF PLACE.  NO ONE SEEMED TO ACCEPT THE TRUE ME AND NO ONE WANTED TO SEE ME IN LUXURY.  I NEVER NOT ONCE COVETED WHAT SOMEONE HAD, EXCEPT THAT I REALLY WANTED MY OWN DAD.  I HAD SOME GOOD TEACHERS AND I REALLY ENJOYED THAT, I LEARNED HOW TO ANSWER BACK.  THERE WERE MANY THINGS I NEVER DID BUT THAT NEVER STOPPED THE DESIRE TO LIVE.  EVEN THOUGH I WAS NEVER TAUGHT I SOMEHOW KNEW WHAT I BOUGHT.  I HAD A CERTAIN TASTE FOR A CERTAIN LIFE SO I WENT ALONG WORKING AND FORGOT ABOUT STRIFE.  I HEAR THE WORDS ABOUT HARD LESSONS TO LEARN BUT I CAN'T BE STILL THE YEARN.  I FEEL A DEEPNESS AND A VOID AND I AM SO PARANOID.  THE WORLD IS FULL OF INTERESTING THINGS AND I WANT THE PLEASURE THAT I SING.