Draining

I've gotten by,
Time and time again,
The steady pain only pushes
Me further,
All these visions will disappear,
In time,
Hal all these scars,
Fall into the dark,
Stumbling around, reaching for something...
Something I never knew I needed,
Until I was truly without,
Can't stop what I started,
It takes me places I don't want to go,
I'm tired....
For all my honesty all I've ever gotten,
was more even doses of pain and abandonment,
Just let me be,
I'll never say another thing,
I've gotten too close to you,
I can feel my trust draining away,
You've outdone those before you,
And now that my trust in you is gone,
The cracked walls rise again,
I can't take the pain,
I'll be gone, you won't find me here again,
In fact, you won't see me at all.
~Kaitlin Platti~