I fell for you darling, now I’m falling once again,

Albeit, in a completely shit, polar opposite way

As the nervous excitement turns to despair and pain.

I might work my way back up, but it takes all day

Whilst then it takes just one thing to send me reeling,

Like walking in a valley with only one shoe:

Up and down but so far from help and healing.

There are bad days, and worse ones too

When the bed that seemed so small doesn’t seem so small at all,

And someone else produces the laugh that used to fuel me and although

I check my phone like a newborn baby; I know you’ll never call.

So I’ll sit up on this lonely shelf with the stereo you bought me a lifetime ago

Listen to this song and review, regret and rue the things I did wrong, such crimes,

And I’ll let a tear run with the chords and search for the strain

In the eyes of reanalysed yous in photographs from better times.                    

I fell for you darling, now I’m falling once again.

I find it’s harder once the sun goes home for the night.

I fix myself a drink; I stop myself from making two.

Catching my reflection in the toaster, I ask, “Will you be alright?”

He looks at me with salty eyes and replies “will you?”

We both smile at the silly mess we’re in;

It’s a guilty smile, because I know it’s my fault I’m here

Constantly vying for a wake up I think we should nearing

Because I’m scared these weeks will turn into months and a year

But as those kissless connotations give me peppered palpitations,

The final flicker of something vaguely resembling hope finally dies in the rain.

You took me further than I had ever been:

I fell for you darling, now I’m falling once again.