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Bastards
Only the act is considered a shameful thing but it produces monsters that take the world by storm.
You look at me and you see a man with frizzy hair and maybe above average common sense but deep down in my core I am a bastard
I was born and my parents were not married
I was born and my daddy was a ghost
I was born to a single mother who was a child.
She was not taught to love herself most
I was born to a little girl afraid of the world and no one would help her
so she found courage in a bottle, and on the weed, and in coke, and in men, and in pills
So you see she really did not have space for a baby a bastard baby
At the time of my birth I was being killed, I was being killed with love, kindness, affection, attention, until…
The little girls interest wore off and reality set in That I was a bastard baby, and that no one would help a single child raise a bastard baby, me that bastard baby
Being a bastard seemed to be wired in our genetic code, genocide for my lineage
In our rage also genetically encoded was the Petri dish of hate, mistrust, despair, proudness, arrogance, self-love and self-hate I had the making of a true criminal, or a noble man
Only my environment would dictate which was needed and make me that which balanced the world or the universe… some how that shit sound more spectacular than it is. Especially if you were on the wrong side of being a bastard
I was placed in different homes never being able to settle in or down, and always waiting for a slap, a hit, kick even spit, for as a bastard child my mommy made the best and worst choice that she could make
Being a bastard herself, she knew that she was not able to be a little grown ass girl that she wanted to be fast tail self so she gave me away… no they took me away, as my bastard self was disturbing the peace, being left alone on a bed without milk, needed to get this wet and stench off of me
Being a bastard, I was always trying to get the wet and stench off of me
The wet from someones mouth yes, spit, the wet from my eyes, I wished that they would just run fuckin’ dry.
As I grew It was the wet from a misplaced kiss, I knew nothing about this emotion thing that got me caught up to thinking that I was safe.
or the wet from the wrong hips, I was on my way to growing into a parasite
Now I feel like I am a fuckin’ bastard parasite… No I could not be farther from the truth
The truth also embedded in my genetic code that I was a bastard and that I knew it and that I had the power to … I had the power, in my genetic code I was given the power of mobility!! Shit who fuckin knew that I could control where I was going!
Who knew that I could run from this place to another place and it would change how I felt and how people treated me who fuckin’ knew that to give a bastard like me a second chance to recreate himself that he would create a me!!
This me has made a depiction of all my fuck ups and all of yours, world!! And computed them to see what I wanted to be and not what the fuck the world needed to fucken balance itself out!!
Now. I am what I want to be, maybe a little more or a little less but non the less I am a bastard, like so many other bastards in our history leaving us to our own devices, some of us end up talking to you through a thick plain of glass, some of us wind up kicking your ass, some of us grow invisible, and then there are those of us who change the world with our presents; Eva Pera, Leonardo Da Vinci, Confucius, John James Audabon
Giovanni Boccacio
Giovanni Casanova
Paul Cezanne
Pope Clement VII
Macauley Culkin
Bobby Darin
Frederick Douglass
Alexander Dumas fils
George Foreman
Jean Genet
James Kier Hardie
Billie Holliday
Bo Jackson
Jesse Jackson
T.E. Lawrence
Jack London
Anna Magnani
Tobey Maguirre
Rod McKuen
Maria Montessori
Shaquille O'Neal
Evita Peron
Fransisco Pizzaro
August Strindberg
Richard Wagner
Booker T Washington
Reggie White
Jesus Christ
Alexander hamilton
Marilyn monroe
Frederick Douglass
Justin Bieber
Brooke Shields
Oprah Winfrey
Bill Clinton
Mike Tyson
Tupac Shakurs
And Me I am a Bastard too! Watch the fuck out cause us bastards, this bastard, like all the ones named, am a proud bastard, and like them I am gonna change the world!
4*8*13
bryce
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