I Die the Next Day


I Die the Next Day


falling asleep gently i wonder
if i ever had a chance

dreams crush me with impossible romance

i awake tasting the taint

of what could be if only i

stripped away the gleam of glory

im crying silently

i feel it in my lungs

im thinking of the people

that i have forgotten

its in my nostrils

its behind my eyes

its pressure that i hate

and its falling down my cheeks

in rivers


the guilt i feel


the years i have lost are


nothing worse than being alone

after an unanswered phonecall

as the liqour fades to amber shades

and the women have left

in disgust

and i wonder who i have left

to trust

the songwriter who destroys me

is playing viciously

staring at an old picture

of what i used to be

wisely i stop crying and let

the music wash away

my ironclad regret and my

selfish undeserved shame

i never get to walk away

i die the next day

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ShanneN commented on I Die the Next Day


i connected soooooooooooooooooo much to this... it is amazing, so much that iwanna cry now... but i wont haha. great job!!

ginga commented on I Die the Next Day


AmadeusEx, A poem of angst, sorrow, and gloomy passion that serves up what hardships anxiety and shame do to leave one lonely. Painful. ginga

wordCollective commented on I Die the Next Day


wow, so much passion and emotion..... remember its the same deep thoughts and feelings that make you the great writer you are!

redbloodink commented on I Die the Next Day


You know Ama you have such talent...... I feel this song I have lived this song.... Now I just write different songs...... red

Poetry is what is lost in translation.

Robert Frost (1875-1963) American Poet.

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