..I once had love..

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    • TheAngelOfDeath
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    ..I once had love..
    I sit here alone in the Dead of night..
    Trying to fight through what I call my life..
    Throwing endless punches at what is my fear..
    Locked up in a room..
    Insanity's Near!
    Casting myself evil glances in the mirror..
    As I plague my unconscious mind with an unyelding fear..
    My conscious mind is trapped on the other side of my tears..
    Along with my reflection in the puddle of beer..

    Death doesn't matter to me anymore..
    Why should i care..with nothing to live for..
    Nothing to give me happiness..
    Nothing to give me hope..
    I have nothing but a blank stare into a mirror that is my soul..
    Love is a mystery..
    Love isn't a game..
    Love is worth more than wealth and fame..
    I once had Love..
    I once had Hope..
    Is the answer to a restless heart a rope
    God forbid that I use this suicide note

    (TheAngelOfDeath)
    4/27/09 (7:32)pm

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    ccslim commented on ..I once had love..

    11-30-2009

    Nice depth! This runs through smooth to a tempo change with soul and thereon! The ending smashes the mirror of reflection with fact!
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    sk8ergirl commented on ..I once had love..

    07-01-2009

    wow that was a great poem i am glad you didn't need to use this note. i can relate to this as well because i thought to take away my life before but not anymore. great poem
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    anneliseh commented on ..I once had love..

    06-25-2009

    this is a very sad ending to the series, but i know it's true, and i just hope that someday you will be reunited with your wife and child.
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    sherry122 commented on ..I once had love..

    05-11-2009

    I learned a lot from my experience and it did make me a better person, I appreciate things even more than before this incident, there’s a lot to be thankful for. I would say that I’m happier now then ever before in my live. So the rope and a puddle of beer are never the answer. Consider your precious past as a gift of God, be thankful for it, and move further. There are a lot of gifts awaiting you if you allow them to come. Nicely written poem, I especially liked this sentence: “ My con
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    sherry122 commented on ..I once had love..

    05-11-2009

    Well, I can relate myself to this poem. I felt like this for 4 years, I felt as if my live was worthless and I wasn’t able to put my mind into anything, when the person I was very much in love with passed away in a road accident. But behind every dark cloud is sunshine. People say that when a depressed person comes out of his/her depression, he/she becomes mentally much stronger, that’s true in my case. I learned to love once more, I learned to live and I’m very thankful for being alive. I
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    Poetry is not a turning loose of emotion, but an escape from emotion.

    T. S. Eliot (1888-1965) American-English poet and playwright.

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