I'm tired of Worrying about You

I want to write you a poem
I need to cry about you
I have to let you go.

But no. I'm not going to.
I'm sick of worrying
about if I made the right decision.
I'm tired of hoping
you will see why I dont need you.
I've finally decided to just be okay
with my decisions
and forget the past
think about the present
and put my dreams
in the future.
The future that
as far as I can see
your not a part of.
You think i'm going to run back to you.
well i'm not.
I have no reason to.

So I want to write you a poem.
But seeing your face every day
and wanting to throw up
keeps me from doing it.
I need to cry over you
but you don't deserve my tears.
I have to let you go.
and every time I think about you
I get one step closer to doing it.