Immune

Words unspoken
Float to the surface
And bubble over
In a blood-curdling scream
The rain falls
The thunder booms
The lightning flares
My eyes are red
Bloodshot from
Days of no sleep
I shiver as
The rain soaks
Into my very core
Your eyes bore
A hole right through
The back of mine
I stand my ground
I refuse to go down
Let’s see who wins
This time around
No stopping now
I can’t hold this unbearable
Pain inside anymore
I am immune
Immune to all of this
Immune to you
The fight in me fades
As the gun comes out
The trigger is held onto
Tight by your forefinger
Your eyes are cold
Tonight, I laugh
Breathlessly, the full moon is out
I don’t register the pain
Until the blood seeps through
Clothes
Sirens and rain blurs in and
Out of my vision
Why is everything so blurry?
Why do I suddenly feel cold?
Am I dead?
The questions echo,
Resonating through my empty
Mind, I walk ahead
Even though there is no road
I have a feeling I know the way
A dot of pure light shines through
My fogged gaze
I peek my eye open
All of the feelings come back
At once
Pain, abandonment, abuse
I realize that little light
Was the lamp above my head
As the doctors operated on me…
Trying to salvage the unsalvageable.
~Kaitlin Platti~