Intentions

Tiptoe around
My feelings,
To try and figure
Out my true
Intentions,
Many times
I've found myself
Meaningless,
Drowning in everything
Unsaid,
It's too much
Can't bring myself
To say I'm Sorry,
Not when I don't
Feel that way,
Another wave of
Tension,
I'm feeling the
Strain,
Laugh,
Cover it up,
There's just too much
Hidden pain drowning
Me, from my
Thoughts,
Such stupid feelings,
Good intentions
Swallowed whole,
By underlying
Emotion,
I tore myself apart
Again
Hoping to find
The courage to
Say what I've
Been truly meaning
To,
Never enough to
Worry
Toss away what
I say,
A way you
Depend on,
Just to get by
So goddamn
Confrontational,
I am,
Hypocritically
Insane,
It's not enough
To remember
To you
Too much
To forget
For Me
~Kaitlin Platti~