Life Sucks

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    A lot of people would never know that I came from an abusive family... I am constantly smiling, laughing, joking around... Before my parents (mom and stepdad) started going to an outpatient drug-rehab, I would never come out of my room once I got home from school... I just couldnt. Things are better now... But I still harbor a lot of hate for my parents. Justified?

    Life Sucks

     I hated the way
    He yelled at Her
    when the drugs wore off
    and he wanted more...

    I hated it
    when She took Him back
    time and again,
    "He didnt mean it..."

    I hated it
    when He would apologize
    then turn around
    and make Her cry...

    I hated Her
    when She said
    how She hated ME
    and wished I was dead...

    I hated Him
    the way He said
    things that made me wish
    He would hit me instead...

    I hated them Both
    when they fucked down the hall
    three days after
    He threw me against a wall...

    I loved the day
    I said to His face
    how He could never
    take my dad's place...

    That I hated Him
    with all my heart...
    Til She said
    "Thanks Audrey, for tearing the family apart"...

    Then I hated myself,
    so much that I left;
    then hated me more
    when I came back again...

    Because I loved my sisters
    to much to leave them
    in the hands and mercy
    of a drug-crazed heathen...

    Because I'd rather
    be His target
    then have Her hurt
    when he felt like arguing...

    So I stay now,
    to protect and act strong,
    just 'til they're big enough...

    Which wont be long...

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    angelchaser commented on Life Sucks

    12-20-2010

    I wish so badly that this weren't true. You're such a sweet girl, I hate to think of you in pain. Were it in my power, you and your sisters would never be hurt by him again. Any man who hits a female, is FOREVER my enemy. I've known many women over the years who've suffered horrible abuse. I know this is just words and anyone can say anything, but I swear to you, I would give my life to keep you from harm. *hugs*
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    Olan01 commented on Life Sucks

    11-26-2010

    Abuse is to wide spread in our families and the world. Taking on the abuse yourself is also too common and sad in our lives but there is a point when one must either report it or walk away. My best friend suffer unbelievable abuse as a child and she was taken away to foster homes to suffer more abuse. You have written from your heart and that is good and I praise you for that effort and enjoyed the result in honest poetry. Love, peace and freedom, Olan.
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    rsalassi commented on Life Sucks

    11-26-2010

    I know from persoanl experience exactly where you're coming from. (My poem about my mother "The legacy of Lady Ruby Russell" might interest you). Aside from the two tiny errors ( too much instead of to much ....and than instead of then), the poem displays your strength, your imagination, your facility with words. Excellent.
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    ImStillHere

    11/26/2010

    thanks i know it bugs me too when people make little errors like that. :) thanks for correcting me. and thank you for your comments. ~Audrey

    JazzyLynn commented on Life Sucks

    09-06-2010

    I've been here... twice.. i know how it is.. i wish i could help...
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    crazydude commented on Life Sucks

    08-14-2010

    wow...so true... i cant put in words... beautiful...
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