Over and over and over and over again....,

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Life lost, suffrage, futility

Over and over and over and over again....,

I already had a real love
one that was void of famiy.
I had a life of false hope
and many protective lies.

It was taken all away from me.
My cherished hopes and dreams
surgically cut away like a cancer.
Leaving empty picture frames
and an odd longing for what i knnow was once there.

I am now like a puzzle piece that is the 
wrong colors for the big picture
My plans dont matter anymore.
The world thinks me a whore.

I wanted to give and care for my loved ones and 
build a legacy to hand down,
now there is nothing to show for all of my hard work.
I feel like my life was stolen by
a lover sneaky in the night.

Why would I want to do it all again 
still for no children, and no family?
I dont think that I could ever 
get passed the feeling that it
would all be selfish and indulgent.

I am left with an overwhelming feeling
that it is too late.  
I feel too old to start all over again.
I feel as if it is too late for the old dreams
to come to fruition now.
I feel like I will never know the real truth of
the cause and reason for my turmoil.

I am labeled now,
 and because I am a survivor I am doomed
to walk alone, eat alone, sleep alone and  
always be dependent on others now. 
It is not in my nature.
 It feels uncomfortable and wrong.
 
Then I hear a song,
and I pray,
and somehow I believe
 it will all turn out ok.
I deserved so much more than ok. 
What else can I say, my life's been tough
and its too late now for it to ever be enough. 

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If I feel physically as if the top of my head were taken off, I know that is poetry.

Emily Dickinson (1830-1886) American poet.

Tempestlady’s Poems (64)

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Ghost Rape 0
The Tools for the Pandemic 0
The Tools for the Pandemic 1
OBSERVATIONS OF LIFESTYLES 0
Over and over and over and over again...., 0
Goodbye Baby 0
FAITH 0
TWC 0
"Every thought she had i heard from accross the room" 0
LATINA NURTURING 0
ROBIN WILLIAMS 0
ACCEPTANCE 0
LOVE AND SEX 0
Say What? 0
Some Days.... 0
Yellow Butterflies 4
Flames and Tears 6
Swans at the park 10
In the dugout 10
I never heard your voice..... 5
Talk to Me 2
The Wind of Death 7
WHAT TO DO.... 3
Futility 4
illusions 15
Innocent Love 17
Tranquility 15
Understanding 14
Mr. O. D. Fisher 9
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1 got Swine Flu
3
Buzz 4499 4
Attraction 11
"Smokin stems on a Saturday" 5
"Polar Bear evolution" 7
UNLAWFUL CARNAL KNOWLEDGE-RES
ULTS
20
I was created... 14
Stuck in a loop 20
BRYAN & DEE FAHRIG 11
ONE LAST DANCE.... 25
DE'JAVUE 15
Jake's Haiku Collection 7
"That Feeling" 5
To have it all... 4
"A Touch Too Much" 8
"Coping Mechanisms" 6
"Our Trucker" 9
Emotions in a lovelife 4
IT AINT NOTHING BUT A THING! 6
My flirting friend.. 12
Love from a distance 20
Kindred Spirits 19
My Lucky One 7
"Sweet Dreams" 8
The art of love 7
A Tone of the voice 4
The leader 7
"SWEET BABY JAMES" 3
"Rocka bye baby" 3
The Bobcat 7
"Cookies" 7
The Drought 6
Anne on my mind...... 7
Balanced Translocation (or dream babies) 9
Southside Cinderella 19