Secluded

As the moments passed on
I walked away with a painted smile
A cover so no one would figure what was wrong
I was finally alone to be myself

No whispers to make me feel ashamed
No judgements and no pressure from the outside
I caged myself from those around me
To protect my center from the obscene

Alone i thought i had it all
But over and over i would fall
It worked only for awhile
Being secluded

I saw so much of what i was missing
Scared to follow anything out of my reach
I stood alone like a coward listening
To the voices in my head from every which way

Opening up was and still is hard to do
I stayed secluded until i turned blue
It was peaceful
It was what i was used to

Step by step
Day by day
I walked closer to civilization
As a stranger with no record of existence

Born for the first time
I realized that at dat point
Seclusion was almost the death of me
But that's a different story