So this is how it feels like

Wow so this is how it feels like
never knowing how it will end
crazy a** drama that keeps going
Not knowing when to stop
but from far away i see that glimpse of hope
a flicker of light shining away in the distance
but then it dims
and fades away
so that
i don't know where to look anymore
i can't hear if any one's actually there
I'm just plain old broken hearted
from the pain , the edge, the stairs
that keep going on forever and ever
and oh what the heck
i don't know when to end
What's the point?
this writing?
it doesn't even help
cause no ones reading
no ones listening or hearing
the little simple cries of help
that I'm screaming
this pain is tearing me apart
it cuts into me like glass
that even some needle and thread won't fix it
wow so this is really how it feels like,
to feel like this......
to feel like shi*