The Struggle Within

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The longest poem I've ever written...I wrote it a long time ago...

The Struggle Within

Sleep depravation,
Mental aggravation,
Internal anger,
External danger.
The night closes in,
On my dreams again.
Anxiety attacks,
When I can’t fight back.
My mental state,
Is my Golden Gate,
A bridge of opportunity,
That carries me,
Across the ocean of inability.
Into a land,
That is unknown.
Give me a helping hand,
Before my life is gone.

I’m breakin’ down,
Depression wins again.
In my world I drown,
But you make me,
Look like a clown.
My tears are real,
Look close and you will see,
That I’m standing still,
In a world moving so fast.
I found someone,
To love me at last.
I finally found where I belong.
My body is bound,
But my soul is strong.

I make no sound,
Where did I go wrong?
This is my soul sacrifice.
You sing a song,
Of unwanted advice.
You leave me alone,
When I need you most.
You treat me like I’m Al Capone,
Or maybe his ghost.

If you believe in such things,
As a heartache that leaves no sting,
Or a heartbreak that feels no pain,
This is my soul sacrifice.
Is it in vain?
This is my soul sacrifice,
Am I insane?
No one cares,
If I leave this world.
Look over there,
And you will see,
A faded outline,
That used to be me.
I leave it all behind,
When I sacrifice all I find,
Inside of me.
What can it be,
That makes me this way?
Day after day,
Night after night,
With myself I struggle and fight.

The struggle within,
I cannot win.
The struggle within,
It starts again.
I bang my head,
Against the wall.
I might be dead,
Or standing tall.
After all,
We’ve been through,
I find myself thinking of you.
What else is there,
For me to do?
Or, do you even care?

I go on living,
A life of sadness.
I go on living,
In a world of madness.
Your love,
Is the anchor,
That holds me down.
Your love,
Is the rain,
That washes away my frown.

I need you now,
I need you here.
The struggle within,
Causes all my fear.
The struggle within,
Causes me to self-destruct.
I wipe away another tear,
Eradicate another sin.

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Worthless commented on The Struggle Within

05-20-2010

uhh... That's what I feel and the words come to you like peanut butter and jelly like corn and mashed potatoes pen and paper... Anger and criticism is my self destruct.. Don't know what to say...

Maleficent commented on The Struggle Within

11-26-2009

wow... this is a fantastic vent... just let it all out!... this is the way I like to see you write... killer piece ~

reyjamiei

12/01/2009

Thank you Maleficent...I'm glad you liked it...a lot of my earlier poems were basically vents...

In science one tries to tell people, in such a way as to be understood by everyone, something that no one ever knew before. But in poetry, it's the exact opposite.

Franz Kafka (1883-1924) Czech writer.

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