Have U Seen Her? I am looking 4 my 1st love.
I have tasted Her, I have chased Her,
Let life break me 4 Her.
Only..2 C Her at the hands of others.
Being loose and easy,
With no sexual or racial preference.
Being sucked, and pulled on by whatever willing patrons.
Fondling Her, worshipping Her, being beat and killed 4 Her.
And She sneers at them, with no conscious.
And even with all the abuse they still…
Flock 2 Her with
“OPENED ARMS”
hoping
She will bless them with a “CLOSED MIND”
Ready and willing 2 accept the mistreatment, the infidelity, the chance of false hope
All of which is sure 2 come.
Fools……All of them, and I, just like them, am also a fool……
4 still I search.
Have U Seen Her?

I use 2 C Her, feel Her presence even,
Whether it B N A Hazey room, or N my sleep blanketing my Dreams
I use 2 have that type of repoire with her
I no longer have that “repoire” with Her, nor do I have sleep, and my dreams are no longer plural, 4 All I have now is but 1…
2 reconcile with Her
And my search would B N in vain if I slept, or dreamed of anything but Her
I desire 4 Her potent protruding rays to touch me, tease me, fill me all the way up……
Even if it is with Poison
So, u c…… there can B no sleep
Because She may get away from me if I sleep
And there is no” Sunshine” when she is…gone
They say, “Loving Her Is Wrong” But they don’t even know….
I don’t want 2 B right….
Anymore

If U never been down that road, then U probably, like the rest don’t know where I am coming from
She gave me a new life, a worry-free life, I never worry about anything anymore
Except Her.
Because of Her I am now numb 2 others, She taught me not 2 care 4 Any-1
Except Her.
She taught me 2 Rock aanndd Roll.
She taught me 2 stay focused on Her only, Think of Her only…always
And then She left…..Again.
She didn’t run, She walked….slowly away, staring me in my face
Daring me 2 snatch Her back, mentally challenging me 2 chase Her…
Me, who loves Her So, while all the while knowing I’ll never catch Her
But I try, I’ll always try, I’ll die trying, because it’s Her, and Her only I live 4
So 4 Her………I’ll gladly die.

Her sidekicks DrO & HaZe, try 2 take my mind off of Her,
They’ve even approached me about engaging in a threesome with them,
And even though I have indulged a time or 2, just keeping company…
I still feel empty afterwards……. midgrade, just like any other
1 Night Stand, there is no meaning behind it.
But with Her I am satisfied and full, afterwards
Until She leaves…..Again
Walking slow, laughing, taunting me even
2 chase Her…………Again
And I will, I will chase her until I reach immortality,
I will chase Her because I am ADDICTED 2 HER LOOK
PURE & UNCUT.

U may not understand the cost of this type of love, 4 it carries a high price,
Baby don’t get it twisted, I myself cannot even afford it, but my obsession with Her makes me B-lieve, that I can.
And check this, I will pay the cost, cause She is the Boss, of this here love affair
And I vowed 2 love, honor, cherish, and obey Her even…………
And then we kissed, and from then on I belonged 2 her, I respected
Her, even if it meant disrespecting myself.
So I will keep looking, searching,
Preying on Her, as She preys on me……
Even in darkness

It sounds crazy, I know, there is no way U can understand where I’m coming from
If U don’t know where I’ve been..
U have 2 B Familiar with it, like I am with Her, You have 2 B able 2 Love
Unconditionally, Feverently, and without Shame, like I love Her
U have 2 B willing 2 give your whole self, even if U get nothing N return
Like I… do with Her.
Yes, I love Her…even if she does not love me.
If U knew Her, really knew her, like I know Her,
U would know Y I love Her so much.
She’s a Jazzy, Jazzy, Jazzy, Jazzy, ………. White Girl
Maybe U do know Her…..and if so, can U tell me…
HAVE U SEEN HER?

peace&riches OUTSPOKEN