If it is you really care,how come when you're around me you're not really there?
If it is you say you love me,how is it I'm left wondering at times,wondering if its just a routine or you say it because you mean it?
If it is I am your world,why is it at times you treat me so cold,leave me empty inside and all I can do is sit down and cry and pray that mabye I just misunderstood so that what you said wasn't ment to hurt?
If it is I'm supposed to feel cared for,why is it when you come around, I somtimes want to run behind a door,lock it tight and throw away the key so that you wont get the best of me?

If it is you're a major part of my life why is it not the happy part,
Instead you're the part that causes me pain again and again?
I try sometimes and wonder if it is that something is wrong with my eye,
Because people say you act just fine,but to me yo're just a explosive of hurt that does a lot of damage....
Sometimes I wish that it's all a dream but unfourtunately it's reality,and everytime I try a new approach things just seems to get worse and worse?

They say actions speaks louder than words,well since its so you have me confused.
One day your words are like a stab to the heart and then another you rip the knife apart..
If it is you don't know how to show it that I can understand,
But until you tell me,I'm left in this foriegn land where apparently love is hate and happiness is sad,left to try to figure out how to repsond and most of all wonder if it is really what it is.