How did you feel when you turned on the light?
And another man was lying there right by your side
Did the guilt overwhelm you and you got up to leave
No you did it again; it’s not easy to believe

How could you throw away all that we had?
Ten years of good times, and yes some of them bad
How could you care less about our two little lives?
They need you, respect you and all your beliefs

It’s sad and it’s bad and it’s terrible too,
That you thought about no one else here but you
And we all pay the price for the decisions you made
As into the oceans of sadness I wade

You couldn’t have hurt me anyway worse
It’s like living within an incurable curse
As I look in your eyes and see the sorrow and pain
I know that I’m feeling it ten times worse again

So why should I give back my heart that you stole
And threw in the fire and created this hole
That cannot be easily filled and repaired
I cannot get thru to you that I am so scared

Scared of the future and hating the past
Looking back at the good times and wondering if it’ll last
If you are really the person that lay in that bed
Or you’re back as the women that I once wed

You say you weren’t thinking but really you did
It took too much thought to fool me and the kids
But the fool now reality has become real again
Is you and man that you thought of back then

The sad thing is this that you just want back in
I am supposed to look past this terrible sin
And for some reason I am thinking that maybe I can
And the courage it takes will be a test of this man

Why should I do it and forgive you now?
Why do you deserve it and can you tell me how,
How do I look past all the bad things you’ve done?
How I went from your everything to a sudden no one

If it doesn’t kill you it gives you more strength
I have thought and cried and done them at length
But I love you with all of my heart and my soul
And you must love me back if you want me to be whole

So forward we march and try to regain
All the good things we had before you boarded that train
But the journey was short and missed all the stops
You realize the misery caused once the balloon pops

So help me regain the smile that I had
Make my face back to happy from sad
Make my heart laugh like you used to do so well
Turn my life back to heaven from this hell

I know you can do it, you did it before
You make the birds sing and can make lions roar
You captured my heart when it was not to be
And as soon as I realized it, you’d set me free

So now let’s look forward and don’t look behind
For the future is in front of us and not in rewind
In forty years time we will forget about this
And the memory will be transformed from a thought to a kiss