What makes us deserve happiness?

Can Sin be forgiven completely,

allowing us to live life to the fullest?

Or are we all going to pay for our sins no matter what?

This is my dilemna

These are my questions

Can they be answered?

Can I just forget about my dreadful sins,

believing that I deserve to have my prayers answered?

Can someone with so much love to give,

ever get a chance to share it with anyone?

Will I get to showcase to the fullest,

the best of my abilities?

Are my feelings and thoughts really a gift from God?

Or are they just there to leave me puzzled,

To leave me craving for answers,

To make me suffer for the sinful acts I have committed?

I may never know

I may never live my dreams

Such wonderful dreams that I can make happen

Are they more people like myself with so much knowledge

and talent for analysation of life and everything that's part of it,

so much insight to share,

so much love and compassion to bestow

who have died and will die, leaving the world, once more,

in mystery and hate?

Did these people try to share their thoughts with anyone,

only to be laughed at and ridiculed?.

I do not want to become such a person.

Yet, I am what I am