My Shadow


Learning to breathe, watching the fall, finding myself in the midst of it all.
Found myself moving from shadow to shadow.
Til I fell in love with a shadow of who I wanted to be.
It seems to be less and less the more I look at it.

I seem to be lost here
Destined to walk in black and white


Watch colors pass me by as vapors over water.
There was color in the shadows eyes
Such colors that I'd never seen before
There was truth in the shadow's eyes
Truth I never wanted to know,
but we faced it together and things were okay again.
But The Shadow turned into a mirror
A reflection that I never hoped to see


The shadow was my friend the best of me
It was something I never hoped to understand
Something I hoped to have forever to understand
Something that disappeared right before my eyes
The eyes in a face that couldn't possibly be my own
The eyes in a face that had to be my own
The shadow found light
Light and shadow became one
And left me to my tears


Left me in the gray again
So many shades of gray,
but each one drains life away like a sickness


My shadow
My way of life
My past in a bottle
My mirror


A reflection I didn't want to see
A reflection that I needed to see
My shadow still haunts me in this world of gray
A world of gray and no distinction

My shadow still loves me in its own way
Loves me only still in these shades of gray
Love of gray ice
Love of gray eyes


And I love my shadow with all my heart
And couldn't tell you why