Nobody knows:
I lay awake at night trying to figure this life out and all I can come up with is that God must have a better plan that I just am not seeing right now. I know I have made a lot of mistake in my life and I have taking a lot from others and giving so much as well I have a reason to be happy and a reason to be sad. I love living life although I just got to this point in my life. I never believed having children could be both a joy and a pain all at once but I love my children and even the bad things and would never just put them out of my life no matter what I have learned to deal with a lot of things growing up as I have and it not that hard to understand just put up with what you can change what you can and forget the rest if I seem to be going on it's because I need you to read between the lines...
A rose is still a rose no matter what color it is and pain is still pain no matter who made you feel it.