I saw you see me from across the room

Gently felt your hands upon my waist,

Opened my eyes and realized

You had never moved into my space.

Hearing Luther croon set the mood

And I immediately thought about taking you to a back room.



Overwhelmed and shocked

You caught my eye and we were locked.

My feet became heavy, my legs got weak

I opened my mouth and couldn't speak.



Initial fear pushed me out the door.

Doubt made me turn the ignition key

Self-loathing forced the pedal to the floor

Because the love, at first, I couldn't see.



Speeding away from my destiny, trying to shake this ache.

Pain from the past slapped me in the face.

The tears began to fall and my heart skipped a beat

The same mistakes, I promised I wouldn't repeat.



Respect myself first and place no man above Thee

Just beginning to realize that I am worthy

The key to my Treasure, I once gave too freely

Never knew I deserve love for just being me.



Decisions made with no consequence in thought

Never asked whose bed next would be his stop

Been through so many Possibles and Maybes

Not one ever wanted to make me their Lady.



But you...



Your magentic smile, I could not have forgot

The intense look in your eyes never left my thoughts

Constant reminders of the possibility of love

That I never sought.



Memories of your face

Crept in and took up space in my dreams

And never left this place

In my heart.



I glimpsed your soul on the day we met,

Immediately you let me in

Conversing for hours like we were old friends

Neither of us knew what was about to begin.



The simplicity of our connection is amazing

Even in the face of doubt

We are never wavering



As a child I thought I would always know

When love came knocking, I'd open the door

Thought I had actually known love before

But meeting you has shaken me to my core.

It feels like I'm done, not searching anymore.

11/01/2006