When I was sixteen I made a big mistake,
now I'm twenty six and I'm finally awake.

It took me ten years, three kids and a divorce,
when my husband left me without a choice.

He left me without a question, answer or a reason why,
falling in love with her telling me a lie.

Staying out late at night,
coming home only to fight.

I knew after a while that something was wrong,
hurting inside but trying to be strong.

I didn't want to face it but he didn't love me anymore,
quietly he left his three kids for her four.

I tried over and over again
but no matter what I did, I just couldn't win.

He wanted nothing to do with me,
he just wanted me to let him be.

I was devastated and so hurt inside,
Everyone knew in the neighborhood, I want to run and hide.

I left the state thinking that would help,
but I thought of him each day and dreamed of him when I slept.

My kids were neglected and did without.
everytime they would say something I'd sceam and shout.

Just around the corner, him and his woman stayed,
so he would pass my way every other day.

There were fights, lonely nights and even jail, Oh man it was rough.
I knew somehow or another I had to pick myself up.

I wanted badly to kill him, her and myself,
but I thought what would my kids do if I left.

I was tired of the pain,
it was making me insane.

I finally surrender to my higher source.
I received the strength of the almighty with his loving force.

I forgave my ex-husband and his woman when I accepted Christ in my life. But I just can't help but think that I was once his wife.