As I sit back and think about life I worry, not because of the love I have but because of the friend I’m losing. Am I not your soul mate? Did God not create you for me? I am confused and dazed, thoughts of your touch, your smell, and the way you always made me feel special consume my head, when were together it seems as if no one else exist. Now I ponder at the thought of you drenching another with the pleasure and love you once bestowed upon me or should I say the lust you bestowed upon me. Where did we go wrong? And what happened to what we had? Was it just fantasy on my part, or just the desire of me wanting to be with you so badly that my mind became clouded with imaginary thoughts of you and me, when in reality I was nothing more to you than pleasurable sex? It makes me wonder: am I not worth more to you? Did you ever feel anything for me? Or are you too afraid to humble yourself and speak your true feelings? Maybe it was all just an illusion of what I wanted, felt, or thought I deserved? I miss your touch and your warm embrace. Where did we go wrong and how can we make it right? My days are now spent cleansing my mind and trying not to focus on the bad things we went through but trying to work on getting back what we lost. But time works miracles, it gives us strength and courage to move on and forget, it helps our hurts heal and heals the pain caused by our hurts. So I will no longer rack my brain about things that are beyond my control instead I’ll smile, remember the good times, and thank God for what I do have.



Written by Tanisha K. 1/08