I try, but I keep failing

I can't forget it

The memories, the feeling

The whole thing

It continues to replay

In my mind, when I close my eyes

It takes over completely

Until I can't breathe

Suffocating me

Taking me

Drowning me

Slowly, killing me

I try to hide it

Make believe it never happened

The second I close my eyes

There it is, waiting

I pretend I'm fine

Trying so hard to escape it

But I can't forget

It stays in there, hidden

Waiting for that single moment

Like it's driven

To wait, patiently

So when I close my eyes

It's there immediately

Reminding me, I'm not fine

Nothing will be alright

Doesn't matter how hard I try

The memory will never leave

The scars too deep to see

It's a hidden suffering

With no hope of ever escaping

-9/19/10-