eMoTionAl BREAK down

I am having an emotional breakdown
Some pathways have been blocked
My senses have little or no direction
Having me to feel things I shouldn’t

Fear has taken control of my heart
Trust has been removed from my mind
My eyes have been blinded by darkness
My feelings sometimes hidden from my view

Everyday my emotions play tricks on me
Plays me against the thought of me
Leaves me wondering in my dreamless state
What I know of who and what I am

Loneliness settles in due to the fear
I think it wants to stay a little longer
It’s been my past, present and now my future
I’m beginning to accept…I think

I witness the love of others around
That binding abyss encircles
Every inch of my being 
It’s cold…..

A beautiful enigma
No one wants to solve
To another someone else
My number one spot taken

Brilliant light…is it real
Can I trust it
Bang, bang, bang, I can hear it
Am I ready yet….

I am emotionally outraged emotionally wrecked
Tears are flowing for change
A leap I would make
If I knew I wasn’t losing me

Daphne-Vickie
October 4th, 2010