I'll try.

I'll try to find myself in
this mess I recieved.
I learn how to breath,
how to cope with
what I've been given.
I wonder how God missed me
all of those years.
I had no one to guide me,
to love me,
to show me how
to be a Mother
someday.
The one wish I always wanted,
I don't know how to be a Mother.
 She took that chance
from me before
I ever got the opportunity.
All I ever wanted
as a little girl,
was to be the best
Mom I could ever be.
She never taught me
to be the Mother I have 
always yearned for.
So I try to learn,
with the help of others
who can finally teach me

To Be A Mother 

                                                 Sheila Vollendroff
                                                              9-12-08