Ivory Heart, Black Words

I wake to hear your voice
Turn to find that no one's there
Still silence fills the air
I realize that I am alone once again.
Lonely in my mind
The state that I don't want to be in.
I rise from the position in which I lay.
The position you left me in.
The words have changed but I haven"t moved
lifting my head from the bed seems more of a chore than everyday living
the stationary lies idle to the touch
cold words pour from the inside out
my warm heart shivers in the sight of what I once thought of you.
The notion that you'd fight for me and you"d never leave
That alone warms my heart more causing an inferno to bellow deep within
Hothearted yet calm
For now.
I lift the pencil from the pad
Eraser bits fall into my lap.
i can't brush them away for I can't bear to part with another thing.
My words dance across the page as the ivory keys under fingers
Reaching out to grasp them is futile for they soon become a faint memory
My ears become strong as my eyes dim
Be it blindness or my heart finally succumbed to the love it once knew.
I cry out hoping that someone else would just come and save me from myself
Myself and my heart being my worst enemy
Glancing to the mirror I see not I but your face as my eyes have grown accustomed to it
Reaching out to grab the visual picture, you disappear
Tears form below my ankle and work it's way up
Eyes burning as the thoght of you holding her replaces the image my mind gathers.
How to end this beautiful nightmare?
Cut her out of my mind as the sharpest knife to a tender heifer
Swimming through the blood, my mind is now gone
it's floating up the river of my tears.
My mind, My heart...
The pride I had before writing this note
It's all gone now.
I am gone for you are gone
Around me, the meal I attempted burns with an inferno powerful enough to meft away my tears
The house I once considered a sanctuary crumbles around me
The piano you once played breaks in half causing my heart to explode inside my chest
Lying in the comforts of death, I seek your face one last time before eternal slumber carries me away
I utter one last word...
echoed forever into the darkness of my mind
Repeated for all Eternity...PLAY