As I stare off into the shadowy mirror-glaze of the lake...
I see your face.
Because I was always told that you looked this way.
Thinking how long will it take this time...
Before I break.
Break, break, break away into tears.
For a father that I have never seen in all my twenty-six years.
The one I needed to calm me down from all my fears.
When I desperately needed you
Where were you?
You were laid to rest twenty-six years back.
For what??? I can never explain except
When it rains it pours and when it pours it rains.
I can never visit your resting site.
For the insurance you had was not right.
Insurance you say...You did not have any.
So they tossed you in a ditch with others with little might.
So I'm forced to wish for a visit from you every night.
So that I'll know my father's alright.
I cry until outside it's light.
I wish someone would understand the void inside that I have.
For a father that had long ago died.
I hope everyday that I could see you.
I would if I could ask God to meet you.
That must come on an appointed time.
That time is neither yours nor mine.
Oh gee I wish you could see how much I want to see.
The one who God chose to help make me.
I will stand firm like a man. I will not sway.
Even though you were laid to rest and taken away.
Although I've never seen or met you, I write to say.
That I'll never forget you on your day, okay.
Now that that's out, I feel fresh and new.
That I have a father and that father is you.
I.....I......I love you!