Today you crossed my mind again,

The pain followed shortly after;

As usual you bring disaster

With these memories I cannot tame.

I remembered the times we shared,

I remembered all the laughter,

And I thought about the chapters

Of the novels we could have made.

But your heart is mine no longer,

You have a new keeper in mind,

And to me you’re no longer kind,

Your mind of me doesn’t wonder.

I’ll think of you now and then,

Maybe that will bring you closer,

And though it’s not me you have chosen

I will always be your friend.

So I’ll be here until the end,

Until all the lights have gone out,

Until you have no doubt

That your heart is mine to mend.

Now I face another winter

Without your fire in my heart,

While I watch myself fall apart

As you grow everyday more distant.

I guess I’ll keep to myself,

Turning my thoughts into song

Wondering what I did wrong

That killed everything you felt.

Now I see you everywhere

And your memory still lingers,

Slowly igniting the cinders

Of the fire I once felt.

I will bring this poem to an end

For I can’t stand the pain any longer,

But know that I will always wonder

When to me you will return.

-Freddy Cruz