Searching


Mistakes I've made & lessons I've learned...

It's all water under the bridge and a page that's turned

I tell myself to reach deep within...

To find that love for myself once again


I try filling the gaps of relationships and voids in my heart...

Knowing I need to love myself to make a fresh start

But how do I do this? O h where do I go?

To step outside myself to search my soul


At times when life's trials say there's no other way....

I've prayed for the lord to take me today

Feeling confused, empty & lost...

Yet seeing valuable lessons in the bridges I've crossed


I bury myself in books & things

Which make me realize that I can still dream...

Of a life that is good, wonderful and fresh...

It's almost as if I were out of my flesh


I've stepped away from myself and looked inside...

No longer feeling the urge to give up and die

My senses now heightened...my voice so alive...

Now letting me know that I will always survive


My eyes now beaming from the new life within

And now I know that I am my best friend

I now see this world with such remarkable love

And drawing more courage from the good lord above...


He watches over me and takes my hand...

When I fall...He helps me to stand

I now see all the good things in life can't you see

And to myself, how true I will be


A new life of independence is what I need

And just like a flower it starts with a seed...

I grow and flourish day by day

In hopes my new life is here to stay