Outside u see me smiling
and floating through each day a little tired
a little thin but over all ok.

but you don’t hear my anguished
thoughts
which surface every night
they plague me, haunt me torment me
‘til im to weak to fight.

And so next day, I come to
School
With deeply shadowed eyes.
I smile, laugh and speak on cue
Living a pack of lies

A silent scream echoes inside,
Reaction to my lie
‘til with no warning it erupts
And I crumble down and cry.


Come find me, help, make it stop
No! keep out go away!
For if you come, ive no control
Over the words I say.

Cant you hear my silent scream,
Decifer what I hide?
So come sit down by my side.

If nothing else, then please read through
This tangled web I weave.
For you are really not the one
Im trying to deceive

Help me-I don’t know what I want
I’ve lost my guiding light
Please hold me and let me cry and say
Some how you’ll make everything alright
Perhaps deep down I know whats wrong
What is the source of all my tears
And ever-there heartache.

But not yet can I face it
or maybe I just wont
please, someone help me
God only knows I don’t.