Snuffed

I wish that I were strong enough
that I'd built these damned walls tall enough
that being good could be enough
to make my life stop being tough

I wish my heart would turn to ice
or that back then I had thought twice
I wish my words were more concise
not ever twisted to device

I wish my metaphors were clear
I wish for someone never here
I wish he'd magically appear
make my scattered thoughts cohere

but wishes never are enough
to make a snarky life less tough
or smooth a road already rough
so all these wishes now I snuff

my wishes all return to me
bereft of life, deflated dreams
pathetic, longing, wistful things
mad hope it is that gives them wings

I wish with all I have to give
for you to share my dream to live
but love is just for fairy tales
and wishes never right the scales

still - I wish