Tears

As the water fills up inside of my eyes and I can feel a teardrop about fall. Hold it in and smile no one will know. Is that all?? As life gets harder and things seem bad the room turns dark and everyones sad. When your holding on with you very last breath and there is nothing that you regret. The Pain that you see the pain that you feel. Sometimes it just seems so unreal. With my eyes shut tight trying to bear the pain standing outside wishing for it to rain so if I cry no one can see the tears that fall and come from me. Then I remember what I have to fight for my family , my love , the friends that I adore. That's what my heart beats for. The reason for life , the reason to live. The reason to love and the reason to give. I breath and  smile my tears start to fall but its for a good reason not to big and not to small. Tears of joy the best of them all.