Pain hits you hard.
Not like a "chill" as people say.
But when it happens, you don't think about it then.
You'll never know how it feels, until
you DO feel it.
The feeling of disappointing, angering, and(/or)
troubling others,
wishing you had all the time in the world,
when you wasted all of yours.

tears are not "pretty",
"emotional",
a thing to just "include" in
your so called "creativity", or "creative things" - like
poems,stories, and ALL that.

tears,
are things filled with hurt
unbearable pain,
sorrow,
worries,
sickness,
of the like.

its amazing,
when forgiveness,
comes so unexpectedly,
when you're brimming with desolation--
no, something MUCH, MUCH worse.
someting you'd WISH you'd
never feel
in this lifetime,
and,
if given a choice,
i feel, and suppose,
that 99.9% of all people
would choose to be ignorant of that pain,
to AVOID that pain.
That horrible experience.
That 0.1% ,
that person, i think,
might not even exist ,
in this world,
unless that person,
chose to live with it,
because they wanted to learn from it,
which is amazing,
but also because,
they,
had,
God(.:[ :] )

Sometimes tears don't help at all, because the source of the pain, regret, disgust, unhappiness, EVERYTHING, still flows and moves ON. -Bonnie

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Bonnie