my tears grow long and stretches beyond the appearance of my smile, my heart grows big than any love i can show outside. my burden are more than anyone wants to bare. yet i keep pretend that i live life without a care. so i fall into a deep stare and try to find good thougts of the only god that would even care. my family knows my pain and struggle, but only cares about the next person who they can hustle. my friend are not reliable for all they care about is there own desires. my man is not mines of my own for he belongs to another home. so what am i left to do but throw down my gaurds and cry boo whoo. but i can because i am a fighter and i never give up it just a bump in the road even the greatest get stuck. you see i learned longtime ago that there are givers and taker in this world.me i just so happen to relize that i am a giver and those are the ones thatare most affected by the things that are happening. so in closing it hurts like hell to be this way but by god way i will continue to stay a giver and i never let no one take that away.