im crying for my boyfriend
im dying inside
im losing my mind
i just want to hide
hes not the kind you can talk to
and he wont let me talk to you
so i stay blue
yet i still love him
i want to be with him for the rest of my life
but still i slice my wrist with a knife
now im bleeding
now is when im needing him most
but he just yells
and puts me through hell
yet i still love him
i've given up all my rights
as a woman as a person
in all aspects of life
i let him control me
i cant believe hes got such a hold of me
i've lost myself
i feel like a doll he plays with
then places back upon a shelf
yet i stll love him
i have become so numb
to myself to the world
and everything in it
i know if i stay this way
in the end ill regret it
its time to take back my life
and this i will not think about twice
i want to feel
i want my feelings to be real
its time for my to call up the devil
and break our deal
bow my head
on the floor i kneel
i pray to let go of all my fears
in a new direction
my life i want to steir