i don't like this feeling of weakness, i'm supposed to be the emotionally wall everyone around me can lean on, that has always been m role in life

now that i've cracked and started falling, no one is there to catch me, no one, and no one is here to lean on me, and i feel like a purpose was lost

i haven't had time to compile myself together, my thoughts, my emotions, my soul, they've been damaged, i'm not myself, i'm another person

i stand here, looking at who i once was, envying that person, jealous of his life

jealous of everything about him

because i was him, i was everything he was, and now, i feel like i'm nothing compared to that state

my walls have fallen down, and in turn, so have i, i've been hurt, and broken, and i wish nothing more then to go back to the past

i'm the ashes of a once powerful person, a being that could stand strong no matter what was thrust on him

but i haven't given up complete hope, i'm rebuilding, becoming someone new, someone just as impressive