Poem Commentary

I always feel like I'm struggling with being happy with my life. I have a great life but for some reason its not always enough. I feel envious of other people's lives. Next to some people, no matter how hard I try, I feel inadequate and intimidated. I look into the past too much. I look back more than I look forward. Its almost like I have no imagination because I am so busy with regrets. This is especially sad because I am a Christian. My past has been forgiven but I have not been able to forgive myself. Not to mention, I still miss some stuff from my past. I have some unresolved feelings about people and things that have happened. Change and progress are extremely difficult for me. I know I don't deserve what I have but God has blessed me. I know I'm going to be with Him some day. But I'm not as grateful as I should be. Yet I still feel his love. It's the only thing that keeps me going.