I saved her
Without realizing
Everyday just trying to make it
With my head still high
Even with my emotions hung low
Tried my best not to let it show
But sometimes I had to let go…
Tears clogged my heart
Tearing me apart
Until I thought...I would die
Wanted to…
Needed to…
Had a reason…
NOT TO
My Child
She needed me
I needed her to need me
I needed me to need her
Love her
Live for her
Show her
Never be afraid…
Nights of fear overwhelmed me
Tore through me
Had this cloud so dark
Threatening to crush me
My spirit needed healing
Here she was a girl
This girl
This girl
My love
I could love
I wouldn’t fail
Couldn’t fail
Was so afraid to fail
Looked in her eyes so afraid
Trying to be so strong
Always felt wrong
Like I was a failure
All her life felt like a failure
Wouldn’t show it
Wanted her to believe she could be…
Never realizing how much like me
How much she was a symbol of me
My freedom
Her hymen
Locked me in a chastity belt of delight
Not stolen love
Just needed her to feel love
To know romance
Not be afraid to love…him…herself
Myself…caught…wants…to know
It’s here
It’s real
Didn’t pay attention
In my face
Everyday
The way…
She loves…
That fantasy
The knight
The horse
The path
Through a dense forest
Came true
In my dreams
I saw her riding off
In white
Not red
Tainted tears of despair
Like her mom
Held on
For so long
Trying, trying, trying
Defying the odds
See the sun setting
Never forgetting
Forgiving
So the next could be mine
I saved me in her
I saved her in me
All this time never realizing
The hero was always inside of me
My strength, faith and love
Carried us away
Across the rainbow of pain
To peace and finally understanding
Learning finally
I saved her (the her that is me)