Pain

See as i spiral into darkness
It never ends 
I scream out in pain
As i claw at my skin
No one can save me now
This hurt goes to deep
Every day it gets worse
Scream and cry
Till my voice goes
But still no one hears
No one ever notices
I smile
But it fake
I am obviously good
At putting on an act
Hear the hounds howl
And the chains clang
This is my personally hell
What did i do so wrong
To deserve all this pain
Push people away
Try to avoid getting hurt
In the end it always happens though
The pain is so deep
It will never go away
They want me to talk about it
But it just makes it worse
I want to forget
Wish i can lose my memory
But the pain is so real
It physically hurts
Never judge me though
Until you have walked in my shoes
For a few years
Than you may understand
There is a fire in my eyes
People dont understand why
Each morning i put on a mask
Fake happiness
Music is the only escape
But reality always hits hard
I keep spiriling into the darkness