"Numb"

I lie here raked with sobbing,feelings of what I have no idea.
My mind it races and screaming out...Why???
Lying here wanting sleep and all I feel is
Numb
My heart is pounding in my chest all I want is a night of peaceful sleep but still I lie here my emotions unrest and all I feel is
Numb
Trying to think,trying to understand not sure where my heart is anymore...confusion, fear, loneliness
This isn't what God had in mind, how did I end up here seeming so un-blessed and all I feel is
Numb
I roll over in my sleep, a brief awakeness and I hear the song play over and over and trying to block out the words, the meaning it implies, there I go crying inside and all I feel is
Numb
I asked God in my sleep to give me peace and please don't let me weep and the music plays and I hear its rhythm and begin to hum and all I feel is
Numb
Life is a challenge and through it we must grow but why...why do I have to go through this alone
My heart is aching, where will it go...who else will know...the hurt of not knowing, he let me go...was it just a game or just for show
When all I want is sleep to feel no pain
When all I am feeling is numb again

Silver Feathers Hawk
3/6/08