Mesmerized by the hard purity,
Reflection shining in the glinting steel,
A fresh, untouched razor,
Smooth as a caress.
Slicing through flesh as if softened butter.
The sting, the bitter clarity!
Hatred falls to the floor in crimson drops,
Spilling down my legs,
Pooling at my feet.
Rage sends me into furious pacing,
Like a caged animal barely contained.
Raw nerves and anxiety leave me a crumpled, sobbing heap.
Pooling at my feet,
Staring me in the face.
Released from my flesh,
In the blood draining from my heart.
Another cut...
Another...
Over and over...
Cutting until there's no unmarred flesh,
Then cutting all over again.
Cutting until weak and faint,
Cutting until bled dry of all the pain,
The suffering puddles on the floor.
Silence is screaming in my ears.
Silence that has been seething just beneath the skin,
Waiting and watching,
Biding time for all of eternity for this moment.
Release it...
Spill it...
Drop it...
Get rid of it any way I can,
Watching it flow from my veins,
Growing to an engulfing puddle.
Cutting away the pain of life,
Trying to escape.