In this sterile solitude I reside

As I close my eyes

The dark deep abyss of my existence becomes unreal

As I fade farther and farther away from reality

I’m embedded in a cloak of numbness because I no longer feel

I give off a façade of sanity when in reality it’s all a bullshit lie!

I’m a prisoner to my dismal thoughts

I’m always trapped in a boundless depression

I try to escape my assailant but it’s impossible

It’s a constant harassment to my psyche

As my tears burn my flesh

My heart is thumping to an irregular beat

My shaking body

My breathing speeds up so rapidly

But there’s nothing I can do to escape myself

I realize my crass and unconventional friend can rescue me though

She can’t talk but she can listen

She doesn’t judge and stereotype me

She doesn’t perpetuate drama

And she doesn’t ignore me

Her stocker like tendencies are comforting when I need a friend

Her majestic physique stained and scoffed with volatile memories

But my friend is a selfish bastard

Taunting me with her faulty promises

And as the sick cycle of my life begins once more

I find myself falling deeper and deeper into this depression

And my infatuation with my dysfunctional friend starts all over again