What if?

What if my mother and father stayed together

What if my school teacher didn’t make fun of my clothes

What if my nationality wasn’t defined by the shape of my nose

What if drugs and violence never consumed my household

What if I never met the 1 friend I have

What if I never had to say goodbye to my dad

What if the kids at school never made fun of me

What if everyone didn’t expect so much of me

What if my 1st love never played games

What if I completed one major goal

What if I wasn’t so afraid of letting go

What if in my children I saw so much of me

What if I was never afraid to be me

What if I was never told stop singing those songs

What if my grandmother wasn’t dead and gone

What if you never dropped me off

What if you didn’t punch me

What if he didn’t touch me

What if somebody listened

Could they ever know?

What if I had a chance to tell you I loved you

What if I missed  you so much I just couldn’t go one

What if you loved me as much as I love you

What if we never argued

What if we never made love

What if I didn’t hate you

What if I never saw you smoke that pipe

What if you never crept out in the middle of the night

What if I didn’t raise you

What if he didn’t rape me

What if I didn’t twist my pillow tight

What if grudges didn’t consume me

What if I didn’t feel you was just out to use me

What if I smiled

What if I spoke my mind

What if I fed you when you were hungry

What if I didn’t let things slide

What if I ran

What if I tried

What if I hid under a rock

What if I didn’t care what you thought

What if I broke the cycle

What if I fail

What if I succeed

Does that mean