Where would I go from here? Where?
If life continues to manifest in the way it has been,
what will I do?
I did not come this far to walk away now.
Yet at the same time;
how do I continue to allow things to go in such ways?
What?!! I wish I knew, is wrong with me?
It's like I am standing outside a plate glass window looking in on my life.
Screaming at the top of my lungs the right thing to do.
But the me on the other side in unable, or unwilling to hear my cries.
The glass is to thick, leaving me stuck in the unknown.
If the me on the inside would just turn around, and see me pleading on the outside,
sound wouldn't be necessary.
I don't know...
I am scared...
I need to come together.
Start on a path that will allow growth spiritually.
For harmony and happiness.
This is something I have got to do for me without worry.
For me to live... To live happy and free...
I deserve this after all the difficulty, regret, and shame I have already endured thus far...
It is time...
Time to stand on my own,
for my strength to grow...