I am held captive
a prisoner in my own home
Praying to my God
asking where did I go wrong
I am so fed up
and feeling like I'm still alone
Lord I done messed up
I know he sick of hearing
the same old sad song
on and on and on and on
please tell me how
to pick up the pieces and move on

Starting over means nothing to me
Done did it plenty times
only difference it was just me
Heavenly Father please set your struggling bird free
cause the route that I am going
the end I cannot see
if not for me
than please do it for my off spring
My heart is mean
hiding behind the mabeline
but if I knocked you said
the world could belong to me

Forgive me Father of my sins
and all the battles I did not win
depending on not you but on satan
who had me caught up in the lions den
and all my friends and my kin
I betrayed and my shoulder I did not lend
to them while In need just held up my chin
and with my second chances I did it again

You said love one another as you love yourself
I am still wondering how to love the ones who gave me hell
Lord have mercy please bless my soul and be my help
cause without you now I have no one else
no one cares everybody's in it for their own-self
and everyday I walk around I step on stoned steps
on my left is the devil on the right is a jail cell
in the middle is an open grave in front of me is my self
looking back grinning at my life's cleft
a closed book of this tragedy in the end she wept