I am bleeding because of this anger
I am bleeding because I am hurt
Not outward but inward
My thoughts have been maimed
My eyes have stung
My ears have rung
Seeing everything which I cannot describe
The horrors and the lies
The putrid idiots and the malaise
The vulgar use of sex and the shame
The falsehood of humanity
The ignorance that adds to this pain
I feel the death of me far
I feel the lies burning from this hell
It wreaks...it crackles...a never-ending flame
How I wish I never played this stupid game
I want to leave, rid myself of this contempt
For it is I in this nightmare who stands exempt
To the illusion of life, death, birth, growth
A life of lies...taken by these fools under loyal oath
I demand there be a halt to this repulsive lie!
Bleeding raw and red in my sand beaten eye
I am weary of the pain...so weary much the same
Loathing every second, every face and every name
With passion I will hate every single element of fate
That has brought me to this hellish pit, so
Wandering on through this desert my teeth I will grate
And to every detail of this imprisonment I shall spit
Condemn this place with the stretch of my hand and sit
Upon the bloodstained deathbed that is this lie
It may try its best, but with me it may not defy
The truth...though lying in the darkest corners I keep
It safe...hostage within my heart as I sleep
Wishing for the awakening
Pondering the moment
When I will open these pallid lids
And feel with my fingertips
All the good there is to offer
From life not as it appears
But as it REALLY is
A reality
Far from here
The one that calls when I least expect to hear
When I am sobbing and alone
With the faint tunes from life resonate in my ear

With that said
I shall say loud and clear
This day shall melt
Down to grey and black... DISAPPEAR!
And FINALLY....smiling....yes...
Smiling for once I will see
My lost passions blossom in front of me